07 Nov An Essay on Lessons
Photos by Troy
Dress from Farmrio
As the year approaches it’s end, my self-reflection has taken a front seat to most other thoughts. Did I do what needed to be done this year? Am I proud of my progress? What seeds can I start planting now that will bear fruit in the coming year? But mostly, I’ve been harping on lessons I’ve learned.. grateful for them and the growth they brought. My [candid] thoughts are below:
- Let go of shit that does not serve you. I let go of so many things and people this year, and none with regret. Every bag I unpacked left me with a weightlessness I will forever be grateful for. Erykah wasn’t lying when she said “you gone hurt yo back draggin’ all them bags like that”
- Independence is another form of freedom. Living byself, working for myself, and being single have forced me into a self-sufficiency that I never knew I needed. I spend all of my resources on myself (time, energy, money) and it feels damn good. A little bit of selfishness is a vital part of self-care.
- I am worthy of good things. I’ve been so used to getting less than I deserved that I had forgotten my worth….or perhaps I’ve never even known it. When good things would happen a dibilitating disbelief would overcome me “I do not deserve this”. I realize that was a lie I’ve been feeding myself based on past experiences. I am worth all of the great things that have been happening and that will happen in the future.
- Hard work actually and legitimately pays off. This year is a true testament to that.
As the days of 2019 fade away I’m sure I’ll have more lessons to share with you, but for now.. I would love to hear from you. What lessons did 2019 leave you with?